July 5, 2012 § 1 Comment
Since March 2011, I have been working full-time and studying as well. When I leave work I rush home to start homework and I no longer have time for myself. I’ve been feeling stressed and anxious because I don’t have a lot time for reflection and true solitude. Daily moments of solitude are critical for me as an individual. Solitude helps to rejuvenate my spirit especially when I’m feeling drained. It’s my time for reflection and deep thought. I’m able to focus and solve problems. It’s also the time when I’m most creative.
In June, I made the decision to take a break from classes for the summer so I could rest and relax. Everyday I come home , I turn off my phone and my computer, and I spend hours writing and creating art. This is the happiest I’ve felt in a long time.
September 12, 2011 § 5 Comments
I write my blog anonymously and it is not tied to my real name. ”Nina” is a nickname used by my family and only they call me by this name so it is perfect to use for this blog since no one else knows me as “Nina”. I didn’t want this blog be attached to my real name because I was concerned about maintaining my privacy. I was also concerned about my employer, certain friends, and even a few family members being able to “google me” and have this blog come up. I wanted to be able to discuss experiences in my life without fear that someone would misunderstand or judge me. This doesn’t mean that no one knows who I really am. Many of my friends and family are aware of and do read my blog.
Writing anonymously does not (at least for me) take away from the authenticity of this blog because everything I discuss is honest and from my heart. Being anonymous has allowed me to openly discuss and admit things that I wouldn’t normally admit and I’m able to discuss the truth of my life without worry.
August 10, 2011 § 1 Comment
When I first joined Facebook, I only had two friends for the longest time and I never even bothered to check it. Little by little more and more of my friends and family began to join and I started to check it more. As more people I knew joined, it became exciting to read their status updates and view their photos. I found it to be a really good way to keep in contact with my friends and family that I don’t see regularly. I began to notice that I was spending more and more time on Facebook until it got to the point where I was checking it far too often. These days, I’m not sure how I really feel about Facebook. I’m more annoyed with it than anything. Yet, I still can’t get up the courage to delete my page even though there are days when I feel like I should.
One of the things that kind of bothers me is how people are able to look at your page and see who your friends are. I’m not sure why that bothers me but it does. I’ve had several people make comments about looking at my page and how they went through my friends list and were surprised that I was friends with a certain person. It just made me uncomfortable so I’ve now made my friends list private.
Another aspect that has bothered me is how frequent people update their status. It’s as if they have to share every single thing they do during the day and night. I’m not interested in reading every single boring thing that someone has done all day. This has also lead to the aggravating issue of how there is the expectation that you will announce every important life event on Facebook. Now when I tell one of friends something important in my life, they immediately ask me if I’ve announced it on Facebook. That question upsets me because I don’t feel like I have to share every single major life decision over Facebook.
More and more I’m beginning to feel like Facebook is a time-waster and I need to learn how to use it more to my advantage if I’m going to keep my profile up. Otherwise, I should just delete it and save myself the irritation.
July 10, 2011 § 2 Comments
I was reading on a pen pal forum and someone asked if there were topics that people did not discuss with their pen pals. I think that having pen pals is the same is having a true friendship with a person. Just as there are friends in my circle that I’m closer to than others, there are pen pals that I’m closer to and I’m more open with. Regardless of our closeness, there are still some topics that I usually don’t discuss with pen pals.
I don’t discuss politics whether it is American politics or the political situation of the countries my pen pals live in. First, I’m not into politics at all so I’m not naturally inclined to speak about it. Second, I don’t always understand the politics of the countries that my pen pals live in so I’m not able to speak on things in an intelligent manner. Finally, politics can be a controversial subject and especially when you don’t agree with the way someone else views things. Instead of initiating a conversation about a topic that might cause an argument, there are a ton of others topics that I can think of to discuss with my pen pals.
I’m also cautious about discussing religion. I don’t mind reading about my pen pals’ religious beliefs and I think it is fascinating that there are so many spiritual beliefs around the world. I do draw the line when people start trying to “convert” me to their spiritual beliefs and I rarely discuss my own religious beliefs with my pen pals (unless they ask).
Something that will likely happen after you’ve has been pen palling for awhile is that you will find that you and a particular pen pal will have other pen pals in common. One thing I don’t do is discuss my relationship with one pen pal to another pen pal that we have in common. I also don’t get into conflicts if one of my pen pals starts to have problems with another pen pal that we have in common. I don’t like to be drawn into another person’s conflicts and I think the best way to resolve a problem you’re having with a person is to deal with that person one on one without having others get involved.
Since I’m a private person, I don’t always talk about whom I’m dating and I never discuss my sex life. This is something that is personal and I’m actually like this with my circle of friends that aren’t pen pals. I’ve never been the type of woman who feels that I need to talk about every single aspect of my love life and who I may or may not be dating
July 6, 2011 § Leave a Comment
The Daily Post: Are you too lazy or too busy?
It’s both for me. This has been one of the busiest years and I’m too busy for a lot of things. Between my heavy workload at my job and then graduate school, I do not have a lot of time for myself and for my hobbies. There are times when I would love to indulge in something that would make me happy but I don’t have time and I end up feeling overwhelmed and disappointed.
I feel that being too busy had also lead me to be too lazy. It is summer and I created a list of plans for this summer and I haven’t accomplished any of them. I’m just too tired and lazy to do anything when I come home. Since it is so hot, I don’t have the energy to do much and I find myself lying around under my central air. This also leaves me feeling disappointed in myself because I’m not a lazy person and when I set goals for myself, I work to accomplish them.
This was not the plan I had for my life when I was younger. I did not want to become some robot that never had time for anything. I didn’t want to become the type of person that was too busy or too tired to do anything because of their job but that is what has become of my life. One of my friends suggested that I make an effort do something that I really love each night and soon it will become a habit. I think that is an excellent suggestion and one that I will put into practice.
July 3, 2011 § 2 Comments
I think everyone has had to deal with a co-worker that was chronically absent and always seemed to be “sick” during crucial times at work. I was fortunate and did not have that problem until a year ago and now the problem seems to be getting worse. I currently have two co-workers that are absent a lot and it’s a huge problem.
The first co-worker and I have the same title and we split the responsibilities. I enjoy working with her but she has been absent during critical times when we are extremely busy. The reason why she is absent is because her child gets sick. Obviously, I’m not blaming her or her child and I understand the need to stay at home with a sick child. It still frustrates me how I am left with all the responsibilities with little to no help. Not only is it frustrating, but it’s also stressful and overwhelming because of our heavy workloads. I don’t know what the solution is to this problem and I fear that if she has another child, she’ll be absent even more.
My second co-worker is our senior accountant and he comes to work about 2 to 3 times a week. When he does come in, he works until 9 or 10 am and then he disappears. No one can find this guy and I’m positive he’s not getting much done since I get e-mails asking about reports he hasn’t done. Since his boss works in another location, there is no one to keep tabs on him. I’m sure his lack of productivity has not gone entirely unnoticed, but his behavior continues.
More and more, I feel irritated at work and I probably need a vacation. There are times when I feel like I have a better work ethic than others, I’m more responsible, and I’m more willing to help others and for these reasons I’m beginning to feel taken advantage of. None of this has paid off and I’m stuck in the a position with no growth. I would like to change jobs but so far I’m not finding anything that would be worth me leaving my current position for.
June 1, 2011 § 1 Comment
I finished my final project for my Intercultural Communications class on Sunday and now I’m ready for summer and lots of “me” time. Here are my top ten plans for summer:
1. Read One Years of Solitude by Gabriel Gracía Márquez (in Spanish)
2. Learning how to paint with watercolors
3. Art journaling
4. Weekend trips to the mountains
5. Sitting by the pool
6. Eating lots of Pinkberry
7. Photographing old buildings around Denver
8. Career planning
10. Daily self-reflection writing
May 15, 2011 § 2 Comments
Mondays are the worse day of the week for me. I’m so anxious about them that I begin to feel nervous on Sunday evenings. I even have a hard time falling asleep on Sunday nights. I feel irritated about having to leave the sanctuary of my home and to go back out into the real world. On the weekends, I retreat from work and school (if possible) and I relax. I’m able to recharge my energy levels and I start to feel normal again. Then Monday comes and I’m forced to deal with all the stress of life all over again.
Another aspect of Mondays that I dislike is how all of my co-workers try to outdo each other with their stories of what they did over the weekend. If one person brags about how much they partied and how much they drank, then another person comes along and has to tell an even more exaggerated story about their weekend. It’s ridiculous and a waste of time and energy to listen to these stories. I try to avoid getting pulled into these conversations by telling my co-workers that I have a lot to do.
Mondays are probably the days that I do the least amount of work. I feel low on Mondays and I lack motivation. It’s as if my body and my mind are at war with the reality that another week has started. I wish there was a way that I could relax my mind so I wouldn’t feel so poorly on Monday mornings.