July 17, 2011 § 3 Comments
Right now it is monsoon season in Colorado and this is an unnerving time of the year for me because I have a serious fear of thunder and lightning. According to this website, the fear of thunder and lightning is called atraphobia. When people think of Colorado, I’m not sure the word monsoon comes to mind. We have an active monsoon season that can begin in late June and last through August. These storms begin in the late afternoon and can continue, off and on, through the evening. These storms usually include heavy rain, thunder, lightning and sometimes hail. It’s the thunder and lightning part that really gets to me.
I’ve been scared of thunder and lightning since I was a child. I don’t like loud noises and that is where this fear started. The louder the thunder would get, the more nervous I would become. Seeing lightning flash also makes me nervous because of the fear that loud thunder will sound. When I’m at home, I take a chair into my walk-in closet and I wait out the storm. My walk-in closet is in my bathroom so I turn on the bathroom fan and the noise from the fan helps the thunder to not sound so loud. When I’m at work, I go to the break room and sit in there until the storm passes. If I’m caught outside in a storm, my symptoms can be out of control. I’ll have “panic attacks” in which I’m shaking and crying. I’m also obsessed with checking the weather apps on my cellphone to make sure that no storms are near when I leave for work or go some place.
A lot of times I do feel embarrassed to have this fear and I’m not sure how to deal with it. So far, I don’t believe that this phobia affects my life too much. I’m not afraid to leave the house unless I see that a storm is coming and then I’ll wait for it to pass. I guess I just hope that this phobia doesn’t get worse and that I don’t get to the point where I’m not able to enjoy my life.
July 10, 2011 § 2 Comments
I was reading on a pen pal forum and someone asked if there were topics that people did not discuss with their pen pals. I think that having pen pals is the same is having a true friendship with a person. Just as there are friends in my circle that I’m closer to than others, there are pen pals that I’m closer to and I’m more open with. Regardless of our closeness, there are still some topics that I usually don’t discuss with pen pals.
I don’t discuss politics whether it is American politics or the political situation of the countries my pen pals live in. First, I’m not into politics at all so I’m not naturally inclined to speak about it. Second, I don’t always understand the politics of the countries that my pen pals live in so I’m not able to speak on things in an intelligent manner. Finally, politics can be a controversial subject and especially when you don’t agree with the way someone else views things. Instead of initiating a conversation about a topic that might cause an argument, there are a ton of others topics that I can think of to discuss with my pen pals.
I’m also cautious about discussing religion. I don’t mind reading about my pen pals’ religious beliefs and I think it is fascinating that there are so many spiritual beliefs around the world. I do draw the line when people start trying to “convert” me to their spiritual beliefs and I rarely discuss my own religious beliefs with my pen pals (unless they ask).
Something that will likely happen after you’ve has been pen palling for awhile is that you will find that you and a particular pen pal will have other pen pals in common. One thing I don’t do is discuss my relationship with one pen pal to another pen pal that we have in common. I also don’t get into conflicts if one of my pen pals starts to have problems with another pen pal that we have in common. I don’t like to be drawn into another person’s conflicts and I think the best way to resolve a problem you’re having with a person is to deal with that person one on one without having others get involved.
Since I’m a private person, I don’t always talk about whom I’m dating and I never discuss my sex life. This is something that is personal and I’m actually like this with my circle of friends that aren’t pen pals. I’ve never been the type of woman who feels that I need to talk about every single aspect of my love life and who I may or may not be dating
July 6, 2011 § Leave a Comment
The Daily Post: Are you too lazy or too busy?
It’s both for me. This has been one of the busiest years and I’m too busy for a lot of things. Between my heavy workload at my job and then graduate school, I do not have a lot of time for myself and for my hobbies. There are times when I would love to indulge in something that would make me happy but I don’t have time and I end up feeling overwhelmed and disappointed.
I feel that being too busy had also lead me to be too lazy. It is summer and I created a list of plans for this summer and I haven’t accomplished any of them. I’m just too tired and lazy to do anything when I come home. Since it is so hot, I don’t have the energy to do much and I find myself lying around under my central air. This also leaves me feeling disappointed in myself because I’m not a lazy person and when I set goals for myself, I work to accomplish them.
This was not the plan I had for my life when I was younger. I did not want to become some robot that never had time for anything. I didn’t want to become the type of person that was too busy or too tired to do anything because of their job but that is what has become of my life. One of my friends suggested that I make an effort do something that I really love each night and soon it will become a habit. I think that is an excellent suggestion and one that I will put into practice.
July 3, 2011 § 2 Comments
I think everyone has had to deal with a co-worker that was chronically absent and always seemed to be “sick” during crucial times at work. I was fortunate and did not have that problem until a year ago and now the problem seems to be getting worse. I currently have two co-workers that are absent a lot and it’s a huge problem.
The first co-worker and I have the same title and we split the responsibilities. I enjoy working with her but she has been absent during critical times when we are extremely busy. The reason why she is absent is because her child gets sick. Obviously, I’m not blaming her or her child and I understand the need to stay at home with a sick child. It still frustrates me how I am left with all the responsibilities with little to no help. Not only is it frustrating, but it’s also stressful and overwhelming because of our heavy workloads. I don’t know what the solution is to this problem and I fear that if she has another child, she’ll be absent even more.
My second co-worker is our senior accountant and he comes to work about 2 to 3 times a week. When he does come in, he works until 9 or 10 am and then he disappears. No one can find this guy and I’m positive he’s not getting much done since I get e-mails asking about reports he hasn’t done. Since his boss works in another location, there is no one to keep tabs on him. I’m sure his lack of productivity has not gone entirely unnoticed, but his behavior continues.
More and more, I feel irritated at work and I probably need a vacation. There are times when I feel like I have a better work ethic than others, I’m more responsible, and I’m more willing to help others and for these reasons I’m beginning to feel taken advantage of. None of this has paid off and I’m stuck in the a position with no growth. I would like to change jobs but so far I’m not finding anything that would be worth me leaving my current position for.
June 1, 2011 § 1 Comment
I finished my final project for my Intercultural Communications class on Sunday and now I’m ready for summer and lots of “me” time. Here are my top ten plans for summer:
1. Read One Years of Solitude by Gabriel Gracía Márquez (in Spanish)
2. Learning how to paint with watercolors
3. Art journaling
4. Weekend trips to the mountains
5. Sitting by the pool
6. Eating lots of Pinkberry
7. Photographing old buildings around Denver
8. Career planning
10. Daily self-reflection writing
May 17, 2011 § Leave a Comment
I only have two more weeks of the Intercultural Communications class and I am currently working on my final project. In this class we’ve been studying different approaches to training on intercultural communications as well as ways to develop and implement the training. Last week my professor showed us a video of her doing an intercultural training module for a group. It was interesting to watch the dynamics between her and the people she was training. She was very friendly with everyone and extremely approachable. She was also really funny and just seemed to be “on”. It’s interesting because there was a time when I thought that I would want to be a professional trainer. I thought that it would fit well with my personality as well as the skills that I have as a professional. The more I think about it, them more I realize that training would not have been a good career for me.
I think that I was drawn to training as a career option at one point in my life because I have been the department trainer in a few of my jobs. Whenever there was a new person, I would be responsible for training them in addition to my other duties. I was successful at it and I think the reason why is because I was training someone one on one. I wasn’t standing up in front of a group of people where all eyes were watching me. I also wasn’t trying to entertain the person I was training to keep them interested in what I was teaching them. It seems like you have to “perform” and always be “on” in order to be a successful trainer and that makes sense. No one wants to listen to a person they feel is boring or uninteresting. By nature, I am not a person who is always up for performance. I have a good sense of humor but I don’t know if I could easily tell jokes or be entertaining in order to hold someone’s attention during training.
I know what it’s like to perform because I’ve studied music since I was a child and I’ve participated in many music concerts and recitals. As nervous as I would be, once I started playing, it would actually be a wonderful experience. There was an energy I felt from playing the music and there was an energy I would feel from the audience that was listening. Maybe that’s what my professor feels when she trains. Because I was passionate about the music I was playing, I believe that is the reason I could get up and perform and maybe that is same way my professor feels just as passionate about the subject she trains on.
May 15, 2011 § 1 Comment
I love journals and I try to write in mine everyday. To be honest, I’m obsessed with journals and this is my latest obsession: The Moleskine Book Journal.
I bought this journal to keep track of all the books I’ve read and to keep track of the ones that I plan on reading. It has pages (in alphabetical order) that you can use to write your reflections about the books you’re read.
It comes with this cute bookmark as wells labels you can use to personalize the additional blank pages.
I’m an avid book reader and I hope that I’ll put this journal to good use this summer since I’ll have more time to read.
May 15, 2011 § 2 Comments
Mondays are the worse day of the week for me. I’m so anxious about them that I begin to feel nervous on Sunday evenings. I even have a hard time falling asleep on Sunday nights. I feel irritated about having to leave the sanctuary of my home and to go back out into the real world. On the weekends, I retreat from work and school (if possible) and I relax. I’m able to recharge my energy levels and I start to feel normal again. Then Monday comes and I’m forced to deal with all the stress of life all over again.
Another aspect of Mondays that I dislike is how all of my co-workers try to outdo each other with their stories of what they did over the weekend. If one person brags about how much they partied and how much they drank, then another person comes along and has to tell an even more exaggerated story about their weekend. It’s ridiculous and a waste of time and energy to listen to these stories. I try to avoid getting pulled into these conversations by telling my co-workers that I have a lot to do.
Mondays are probably the days that I do the least amount of work. I feel low on Mondays and I lack motivation. It’s as if my body and my mind are at war with the reality that another week has started. I wish there was a way that I could relax my mind so I wouldn’t feel so poorly on Monday mornings.